w/c is more painful?!?!?!

actions are more painful than words…

to see is to believe…

what i see is what i believe…

…what i cant see, are the things that fools me….

expect…expect…?!?!?!

expecting, is what you made me of…

expected, is the thing that never happens…

no wonder…i just hated those words….

had a great day with you guyzz…

hehehe… im just happy to have some time with you, i dont know but you made me too happy… i wish we could have more time bonding together… you’re my second family already, i feel secured when you’re around,., watching me, hugging me, and make me laugh all the time… i just like the feeling… you made me put away those emotions i should not have felt… well, thanks for that!!! i really love you guys…

maej: i know, you’re the only one whose reading my blog… hehehe… i just want to thank you, it was really a great day with you,.. with all of you… thank you for staying at my side when im depressed… i kept on saying i can handle it, but now, i dont know… i want to think it that way that but im afraid i cant handle it… thanks for being an outlet… thanks for listening… thanks for everything…

rap: hmmmmmmmmm… you’re the naughty boy,yet, i understand… just be “rap”, its the best thing we could do for ourselves… friends could accept you as what you are… like us,(hehehe), you’re such a great clown… you’re making us too happy… just stay being a friendly happy guy… if you need someone to talk to… were just here, just a single text/call away… hehehehe…. thank you that you happened…

wilz: weeeeeeeee… the sweetest guy ive known… hmmmmmm… thanks for the help!!! you just dont know how’d you helped me a lot!!! thanks for being a big bro… thank you for helping me ease the pain… please stay as nice as what you are… please stay with us, friends forever,….hehehe…  i just cant explain how lucky i am to have you in my life… luv yah KUYA!!!

dora: the emo gurl… hey just want to tell you something… “be an inspiration to everybody”… i know you could do it!!! just be brave to face everything! dont be disappointed with small things, just think “what if big problems come”,could you be still brave to face it??! i know you can!!! just grow up dora!!! you’ll be a good achiever someday… God loves you…

God Loves all of you… we could be friends forever right?!?! i will surely cherish and treasure those moments that we had… i love you guyz… im just happy… very very happy…

i have to be strong…

Just a wink of an eye…everything seems to be unseen…I don’t understand… I have so many questions… I need to clarify everything… I need an answer to all of these…

I’m so attached to them, which are undeniable… I care for them, I love them, I need them… that’s how I value them… no wonder why I felt these pain… they’re such a good friend of mine, I truly need them… but what happened? Everything seems unclear… I went home with pain, leaving them with a problem unsolved. He cried, I cried, she cried… we all cried for just a stupid thing… a great MISUNDERSTANDING…

I hate this, I truly hate this… I did things slowly just to keep our friendship… I’m waiting for the right time to talk to him, to tell him everything about her and what she feels… but somebody ruined everything… why do he/she have to tell him that were mad at him even if we’re not?! Where on earth did he/she got that nonsense thing‼! I want to be mad at her/him but I just can’t. All I want is an explanation for everything. But it has nothing to do already; all we have to do is to fix things up.

One got sick, rushed to the hospital, I worried. I’ve done a prayer. But still, tears didn’t stop. I don’t understand things happened that day. Time was so fast. I’m thinking so much that I couldn’t bear with the pain. I cried and cried… Looking for someone to talk to… someone who’s always there for me, who’s just a single text/call away… I really need a big hug that night… someone I could cry on… but no one’s around, but just a pillow.

But still, I have to be strong… Knowing that she needs me, I have to show her that she can trust me that I’ll always be here for her… It seems familiar, yes; it is indeed a familiar thing. I’m used to this kind of feeling. So, I’m strong enough to face it. I just have to believe, to trust, that everything will be okay. I’m not that weak… were not kids anymore to let somebody fix it. Were old enough, matured enough to face these things… I have to be strong, and stay stronger…