i have to be strong…
Just a wink of an eye…everything seems to be unseen…I don’t understand… I have so many questions… I need to clarify everything… I need an answer to all of these…
I’m so attached to them, which are undeniable… I care for them, I love them, I need them… that’s how I value them… no wonder why I felt these pain… they’re such a good friend of mine, I truly need them… but what happened? Everything seems unclear… I went home with pain, leaving them with a problem unsolved. He cried, I cried, she cried… we all cried for just a stupid thing… a great MISUNDERSTANDING…
I hate this, I truly hate this… I did things slowly just to keep our friendship… I’m waiting for the right time to talk to him, to tell him everything about her and what she feels… but somebody ruined everything… why do he/she have to tell him that were mad at him even if we’re not?! Where on earth did he/she got that nonsense thing‼! I want to be mad at her/him but I just can’t. All I want is an explanation for everything. But it has nothing to do already; all we have to do is to fix things up.
One got sick, rushed to the hospital, I worried. I’ve done a prayer. But still, tears didn’t stop. I don’t understand things happened that day. Time was so fast. I’m thinking so much that I couldn’t bear with the pain. I cried and cried… Looking for someone to talk to… someone who’s always there for me, who’s just a single text/call away… I really need a big hug that night… someone I could cry on… but no one’s around, but just a pillow.
But still, I have to be strong… Knowing that she needs me, I have to show her that she can trust me that I’ll always be here for her… It seems familiar, yes; it is indeed a familiar thing. I’m used to this kind of feeling. So, I’m strong enough to face it. I just have to believe, to trust, that everything will be okay. I’m not that weak… were not kids anymore to let somebody fix it. Were old enough, matured enough to face these things… I have to be strong, and stay stronger…
you’re strong bespren! hehehe.. i know ur strong! hehehe.. this is so nice! i really admire your posts!!